Temptation: Check, Willpower: ???

I tried to disconnect my internet tonight. If I had it disconnected as of right now, I would have been charged another 30 days regardless, so the guy was like leave it on for 30 days and that way you at least aren't paying for nothing. I agreed. Then he launched into a bunch of numbers where it works out that I might as well keep my internet and leave my phone the way it is, because on average I use less than 300 long distance minutes. Anyway, long story short I said, "Okay, leave it the way it is then," and he came back with, "I didn't change a thing."

So I have to find another way to not spend all my spare time on the internet. Grr! I have absolutely zero willpower. I had to force myself not to eat a second piece of cake today at mom's. It felt like I should be eating! I was sitting there wondering why I wasn't eating, and yet I was pleasantly full of roast beef dinner and a reasonably-sized piece of cake. What is wrong with me? Am I eating my feelings? Lord knows I don't have feelings about much these days.

I'll just sit here and eat two ice cream sandwiches, and stare at the measurements I took of myself earlier today. Shockingly large numbers. Not too shockingly, because I do live inside this fat storage container somewhere. I guess unpleasantly large is a better description. I measured everything. I'm gonna make a chart, I'm just not sure how to go about doing it. I can't wait for spring so I can actually go for walks.

On the lighter side of things, I saw a guy fall on his ass tonight, delightful. It serves him right, he was running through the parking lot the day after an ice storm followed by a light sprinkling of snow. Go cut your hair! Crazy kids.